Well just some honesty... Most of you probably already know that I struggle with depression, but if you don't - now you do. For the past couple of days I have felt that dread of depression sneak back in. It is so upsetting to me. God has been showing me so much and really changing how I was thinking and then this - depression. Why? I wish I had the answer. Nothing is going wrong. Life is good. I am VERY blessed, but still I feel depressed. It has also made it difficult to see a "GIFT" from God. What is God trying to teach me even in this? As I write this I am reminded that my faith, my belief in God should not be controlled or wavered by my feelings. God is still God, still in control, still the Savior born in a barn many years ago - regardless of how I feel, regardless of how dirty my house is, regardless of how much of a lousy housewife I feel like, regardless that I feel like I can't get it together - HE is Still the King that will reign FOREVER. How do I remember all this though? So I guess that is it - That is the gift for today... HIS Word, HIS TRUTH - that is the bible. It tells me who He is and that my feelings cannot refute, because that is TRUTH.
"Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid; For the Lord God is my strenght and song, and He has become my salvation." Isaiah 12:2
"Trust in the Lord forever, For in God the Lord, we have an everlasting Rock." Isaiah 26:4
"Do you not know? have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth Does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power." Isaiah 40:28-29
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hate to hear you've been dealing with that lately. the good thing is God is God no matter how you feel and He is more powerful than your feelings. Just keep looking to Him!Continue to allow Him to teach you things through this.
Oh my goodness I am just now reading your blog and just cant help to smile about our conversation we had earlier today.. God is so good and he is so present.. I love how you were so deep on my heart that morning and you still are.. I am so sorry you are going thru some dark times right now but you just have to realize you are not alone and you never will be..Whats the saying If God brings you to it HE will see you thru it.. Know that I am here for you at anytime and know that I think you are GREAT!! I love you so much and I am so thankful you are my sister in law, my sister in Christ and my sweet sweet friend!!!
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